A grave in my heart

a desire so deep
that it creeps in my veins
and blackens my blood
with sheer insanity

a desire to kill you
to kill you my love
not for what you did
but for what you are

a chosen bride of god
or the one lusted by satan
coz wen it was me who loves you
i feel u say its not meant to be

u r not the desire
its your soul so pure
its your heart so clean
its your thoughts so fresh

so relentless your love
that lived in me for a time
and so unnerving too
that it never let me rest

i still long for you
and remember times that never were
still count the hours i spent with you
to wither away in months without

so today i closed my eyes
and turned myself inside out
to reach deep into my own heart
just to kill my love for you

it wasn't easy a task to do
so strong had ur love grown up
i had fed it with my tears of nights
and smiles of my days

i had to fight it hard
coz it was u n me together
though u never accpted it
but the truth shall persist forever

and a long time passed
in the war itself within me
and when i finally won the battle
i knew i had lost it too

and now i stand by
a grave in my heart
in which rests my dead love for u
and u urself alive

it is not the agony
or the turmoils i face in the fight
but the thought of accepting
that yes i m a rejection

the thought that brings me
a sense of satisfaction
that yes now i m free
that yes now i m free

i know i never will love again
but your love will stay with me
and i'll read the tombstone everyday
and smile back at my love

coz funny seems
what it will read
"my love for you"
'"whose life was a liability and death is an asset"'